As you guys know I’ve been struggling in the act of breaking the negative feedback loop I’ve been stuck in since lockdown. Today I got zero sales, and I’m going out drinking anyways.
Because I’ve been invited out by a co-worker, and I need to think forward. I won’t get trashed like last time I went out. But I really should see ‘Town’. I’ve been in Christchurch for close to five months. The longest I’ve been in any place since University, and I’m yet to see the nightlife. That changes tonight.
I’ll make friends and have a laugh. Budgeting is important, but so is having friends. I feel lonely, as an extrovert its poison. How much can I bitch about isolation if I do little to combat it. yes there are groups in the city but I don’t know where they are
What Is The Plan
Predrinks in the Uni Hall. Yea they’re first years. I guess I gotta get used to young friends. Fuck it. Yea I can’t really afford it, but I’m tired of feeling like a victim. Do what I love; meet people, cause mischief, tell stories and make new ones.
The only way to break this negative feedback loop is to jolt my life with energy. I still showed up to work and gave it my all. I still wrote this blog and I’m eating better now than I have been. My tooth’s fixed and I’ve been invited out by someone that’s assured me they’re on a budget. If not now, when?
How Was My Work Day
Well, I was the company lowballer which fucks me off, but I have a great repor with my workmates. Things are on the up and up and I need to aid that momentum, not curb it. Tonight I take a new angle on breaking the negative feedback loop.